A Breakup

26 Mar

Hi!

Long time no talk, right?! Last week I had intentions to blog….well at least one or two intentions, but then life got busy and it just wasn’t gonna happen. No sense in forcing some half assed rambling content on to your browser screens. Unless you view all of my posts as half assed rambling content, in which I apologize :)

But anyway, I have some news for you — running and I are going through a rocky patch of our relationship and we’re taking a break. We’ve only hung out for 2 miles in the past 2.5 weeks, and the most shocking part is I couldn’t be happier about it.

Last Monday I joined a boot camp with 2 friends and it has been such an amazing change of pace after almost 2 years of only running. I’m so sore and I love it. We’ve been doing lunges and squats and stairs and pushups and everything else that brings on some serious, but very welcomed pain.

These stairs have tortured my body for 45 minutes twice in the past 5 days

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and I’m not mad about it one bit.

It was actually while running these stairs I did my soul searching and had an epiphany about why I am currently anti-running. It actually coincides with a lot of aspects of my life, including my inability to date anyone longer than 2 months, which is my natural instinct to drop everything and move on when the going gets a little tough. I subconsciously find reasons to move away, rather than fight through it and see what’s on the other side, and after my horrendous experience at the San Diego Half Marathon I have thrown all the blame on running. Clearly my minimal fuel and lack of hill training had nothing to do with it because god forbid I be the problem. Instead I just send running to the curb and claim to hate it.

This being said, I do need to figure out a way to break down this wall I’ve built up against running. It has opened new fitness door for me and I am currently loving my boot camping, but I also have 2 half marathons coming up in the next two months and it’d be nice to not collapse during them.

So the current dilemma — the next half marathon is on Sunday, May 2nd with my bffffffff Sara, but neither of us have been running the past couple of weeks. We She doesn’t want to bail, but we’re pretty sure the course may take us 3+ hours to finish because neither of us are motivated to run. Which brings us to my first poll ever on I Run For Donuts:

Vote up biddies!

After rereading this post I’ve realized what a catch I am*. I guess I shouldn’t publicize this blog on my Tinder profile. We’ll save the crazy for the 3rd 1st date.

*just another time the existence of a sarcasm font would be ideal

How do you get over being in a fight with running?

What would you do if you were in my position?

Anyone else do boot camp??

7 Responses to “A Breakup”

  1. vickypalmer2 March 27, 2014 at 12:34 am #

    Oh my!!
    I have to tell you that last year I had a very similar experience.

    By then I had been running for around 2 years and I’d been troubled by a couple of viruses and low level injuries and frankly, my running ability had taken a but of a hit and I was completely demoralised.
    One day, after running about 1.5 miles, I stopped and said “that’s it! I hate running. I hate it, I’m bad at it and I’m never doing it again!” at that point I was mid training programme for my first full marathon and I had a half marathon just a couple of months away.
    In spite of this, I suddenly felt free! I’d cut myself loose from the chains of my own, unrealistic expectations of my abilities and I didn’t run – at all – not a single bit, for 2 whole weeks!!!
    Instead, I went to boot camp!!
    Boot camp was great. As it did for you, it did for me. I ached in places I never knew existed and it was fantastic!!

    After a couple of sessions at boot camp, I became curious about How the boot camp had affected my running ability so I tried running again, just a short distance. My ability was much the same as previously (slow!!!) but because I didn’t know what to expect I was surprised that I could still run at all!

    I picked up my running again at that stage- after all – I had a marathon to run, but my relationship with running had changed. I ran when I wanted to and when I wanted to stop and walk, I did and it didn’t matter, because whether I was running or walking I was still moving and that had to be better than sitting at home – right?!
    I ran the marathon. It was slow – very slow, but I did it. I continued with the bboot camp class and picked up a spinning class too and it was a nice change to running.
    this past few weeks my relationship with running has undergone another change. I’ve stopped boot camp and spinning and started running again and I feel that I have a renewed energy with it. I’m working on my speed, and that is improving my confidence but I’m not putting myself under too much pressure.
    When I look back at what happened last year I can see quite clearly what happened. I was tired. Apart from the injuries I’d experienced, it’d had a bereavement and some serious family issues and I’d not dealt with them at all because i’d focused on running instead and that resulted in my over training. My body and my mind was screaming for a break and I wasn’t listening!
    I do hope that you rediscover your positive relationship with running in the future – however changed that relationship may be, but if you discover a love for something else instead then it’s not all bad is it?
    Good luck and enjoy the rest!
    X

  2. Kathy Straka March 27, 2014 at 7:14 am #

    I have to tell you that my friend did the San Diego half marathon also and she was very frustrated with the organizers as it started late and they didn’t have enough water stations on such a warm day. Anyway just thought I would let you know that. Good luck!

  3. Chocolate Covered Race Medals March 27, 2014 at 10:22 am #

    Sometimes we NEED to take a break from each other — us and running.

  4. everythingswaiting March 27, 2014 at 3:47 pm #

    Breaks are good. I significantly cut back on my running for 2.5 months after my last half before I had to start training for my next half. It was nice to take the time to run because I wanted to run, not because I HAD to run and not having a strict schedule to follow. This is also one of the reasons why I try to wait to register for my next race until my current race is over, so I’m not over-committed. I think if you want to back out of the race then back out. Forcing yourself to do it won’t likely help you regain your love for running. As long as you’re staying active with something like boot camp you won’t lose your fitness so much that you wouldn’t be able to train for another race in future months.

  5. kellabelle March 28, 2014 at 6:00 am #

    Hi! I am just getting over a similar break up. However, I don’t think I would call a couple weeks a “break-up,” but rather a “recovery period.” I have been running for 9 years now and this past winter was the first time that my “recovery period” lasted more than a few weeks. I took 4 months off. Between this winter being extremely snowy and frigid, my anti-treadmil attitude, my knees and funky nerve pain in my back, I decided that I needed to seriously consider if running is doing more damage than good. I’ve learned that I can’t just jump up and go for a run then come home and shower and continue on with my day like I used to when I was 16 or 20. I actually have to stretch before and after. Ah-ha! What a crazy concept, right? So, this past week I began again. Only 2-3 miles and very slow. Despite my body aches, I don’t think I can completely call a quits just yet. Running has helped me physically and mentally more than I think I ever realized. So, moral of the story, taking little breaks here and there is definitely okay, actually, I think it is healthy.

  6. CourtneyYoung March 28, 2014 at 11:08 am #

    I am pretty new to running. I am going to complete…attempt… my first face which happens to be a half marathon in Nashville in four week. I have missed my normal full body workouts so much. I decided to skip running this week and hit the gym. I can not even walk, much less run! But I am totally with you – I LOVE IT! As soon as I finish this race I will be back to my normal full body workouts. Maybe I will run short distances once or twice a week for cardio.

    Good luck!
    Living Forever Young –> Courtney

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